My life Story

Hello Friends,

Let me start o with My name is Ben Larson. I was born on November 23,1982. I have been threw a lot of trials in life but I have learned a lot from it all. When I was two months old I became very sick with spinal meningitis. This caused me to lose all of my hearing in both ears except for about 10%. Thant is why I now where two hearing aids one in each ear. This allows me to have about 90% of my hearing back in both ears. When I was in Kindergarten my parents decided to get a divorce. I can remember all the stress, confusion, and feelings that I was feeling at that time. I also because of my hearing impairment and lack of understanding of the ABC's was held back in Kindergarten. I really struggled with school. Because of everything that was taking place in my life at this time it caused a lot of hurt in my life so therefor I learned to just put on a mask and pretend that everything was all right when really it wasn't. It  was when I was in the third grade that my parents decided to send me to a deaf and hard of hearing school. I'm very thankful that they did this for me because I was able to make a lot of friends there and for once I felt like I fit in with my peers. In fact I was the first Deaf/Hard of hearing Boy in the state of Nebraska to be in swing choirs both my seventh and eight grade years. It was at the end of my eighth grade year that I made the decision that I wanted to come back to my home district for High school. That was one of the hardest transitions that I have ever had to go threw. I had to make all new friends and I got picked on very badly. Because my peers didn't understand what it was like to have a deaf student in there classes and my speech impairment I was called some pretty hurtful names. It was after high school that I moved out on my own. This is when everything in m life  started to fall apart. I got hooked up with the wrong crowd and started looking for love in all the wrong places. I started drinking, going to strip bars, and smoking cigarettes. I never did find happiness or love in any of these things. I only became more and more lonely and depressed. this only led to more things and so I turned to homosexuality to try and find love there. I eventually started dating these men that I was meeting at the gay bars. I was letting this addiction take over my life. I couldn't focus on what I needed to be doing as a christian. I was losing my life a my friends and my  family. It was at this point in my life that I called up my Mom and asked her for some help. After talking to her for a couple of months I made the decision to move down to Kansas and try and star my life over there . Everything started out good. Pastor Pat and the church in Wamego were very welcoming. When really nothing had changed I chose to bring my problems and addictions here with me. I started lying to my parents Pastor and my friends. I was losing my trust from everyone. It was at that point that I knew I needed to get help so I entered a program called teen Challenge. I'm very thankful that I did this. It has helped to to become a better christian. I'm living a totally new lifestyle. This is just the beginning of my Life story. There still is a lot more to be written about in the future.